Chivas Cycle

Blast from the past ...

Sometimes the past has a way of coming back and biting you in the arse

Can you believe things have happened already?! It's only the morning after my last post ... and now I'm actually posting constantly! So everyone kind of pushed me into getting this Facebook account. I'm still learning the ropes, etc ... but its a good way of keeping in touch, putting up pictures, etc.

A familiar name dropped into my browsing yesterday, and for the first time in years, I decided to get in touch. Driano was the love of my 15 year old life. I probably stayed mad about him till I was 20 or so. We never actually got together, and till today, I don't know why. We used to speak long hours every night (so many times, we "saw" the break of dawn together!), sneak out to go to stupid things at midnight, hang out every weekend. When he first got his driver's license, I was the first to get a ride. He was another popular jock strap, on the hockey team, but also mixed with a bit of a rough crowd. Innocent, good girl me, was hopelessly attracted.

He was the one that was into hockey, and that's how I got into it, he introduced me to the rest of the boys on the team ... and later, to a young Dr. Dish, who was one of the boys on the team - and later came to the same school as me ... and you know how the rest is history! Driano was the mutual friend that was the very first talking point between Dr. Dish and I.

You see how life is a huge cycle?

Anyway, to make a long story short, when Driano started college, he forgot all about me ... and literally, just cut me out of his life. I was very hurt, but also, had the low self esteem to never confront him. You see, it was the day I always feared would come ... why would the popular high school jock want to hang with me?

Now, almost 10 years later, he's right here. Not in Holland, but London. And he just said he travels all the time to where I live ... and wants to meet up!

This is very very dangerous territory. It took me a long long time to get over him ... and the best thing for me, was really, not to have him in my life. But maybe now that we're both adults, lived the last 10 years apart ... we can be mature about this, surely! Be friends. Surely there's nothing left there?

I'm not sure I can answer that positively. He certainly didn't crush me the way Rex did ... but perhaps maybe that's why I still think of him with a little flutter in my heart.

What can I say, but watch this space! Exciting OR WHAT!!!!