Malibu Merry-Go-Round

"Messing up. It's what makes a person. It's how we learn, where we find joy. And the things you don't plan for are things you never see coming."

-Dr. Izzie Stevens, "Grey's Anatomy - My Favourite Mistake"-

I honestly thought the last of anything exciting had happened to me with this fabulous offer. How wrong I was ... with packing in everybody I love who wants to say goodbye, or party for the last time in a long while ... exchanging memories and stories to last for our time apart ... and to the occasional ex who comes banging on your front-door at 3 am in the morning.

I'm not making up that last bit. H calls Dr. Dish my "favourite mistake" ... I'm not sure if I'd be as kind to my memories. Think our dishy doc is really my moment of weakness. That's weakness plural, unfortunately. HOW we hooked up again, I haven't a clue! I certainly didn't mean to .... it just kind of happened.

Honestly, guys, I was standing firm. He was an inconsiderate jerk for far too long to get back into my good books ... much less into anything else! I haven't seen him in months! He blew me off on my birthday. ON MY BIRTHDAY. Unforgiveable! I wasn't supposed to have anything to do with him. EVER again ....

I've been refusing to see him all this month. He'd found out about my big move, and decided he suddenly wanted to see me. Forget the fact we'd barely spoken for the last 6 months or so. Suddenly, he had to see me.

Where was all this concern 6 months ago? Where was this affection on my BIRTHDAY?

Bah!

I firmly resolved not to see him. I wasn't going to be anyone's convenience. I was to good for him. He'd blown every oppurtunity in the book. I was off for a new life, one that did NOT include a too slow, inarticulate dreamy eyed doctor.

20 text messages later ... I said okay to him driving by. Then it was lets not wake my parents, lets go back to his. I made it clear for it to be just drinks, and nothing more. Yeah right ...

But when I got into his flashy new ride ... and took my first good look at him in 6 months, I nearly swallowed my own tongue. How was he so hot? How was I still weak at the knees at the sight of those bottomless brown pools? I should detest him. I should be angry, annoyed, irritated ... not melting into a puddle at the bottom of the new 4 wheel drive.

Sigh ... he knows me well too.

He barely even hinted at anything ... not even to kiss me. We spoke, we laughed, he kept topping up my glass (my only sign the entire evening that he may want to get me flat on my back) ... he was interested in what I was doing, he was supportive and excited for my new life. He was my friend again.

I hadn't seen this part of him since 2004, when we first kissed, and everything turned upside down. I was delighted.

But not as delighted as when I recognised that look in his eye when he pulled me onto his lap .... and we went ... er, "down" our own memory lane.

Again. I don't have an explanation, other than the fact he still is hot.

" The thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected. So when we're thrown a curve ball, we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us have to move on to plan B and make the best of it. And sometimes what we want is exactly what we need, but sometimes what we need is a new plan."

-Dr. Meredith Grey, "Grey's Anatomy - My Favourite Mistake"-