Dom Destiny?

Is it really written in the stars?

"We are merely the star's tennis balls, struck and bandied which way may please them"

Duchess of Malfi, John Webster

Birthday baby ....

I’m not sure what the hell is going on in Vixen land. I just know its come to a turning point. I feel a huge corner has been taken, but where this road leads to, I have no idea. But Someone does!

I know the last thing everyone heard was me going ga-ga over a Frenchman (who turned out to be “a little bit engaged” BAH! Bloody French Bastard!) But it’s kind of difficult to remember all that disappointment in light of recent events...

A week before my birthday, I was starved for excitement; and Aoirish just happened to be there at the right time and right place. (How is it that the Spawn of Satan always knows when you're at your weakest?) What started off as an innocent, quiet dinner (you all should know by now that NOTHING with Aoirish is ever “innocent” or “quiet”) – ended up to be a wild night out at Zouk. (What ELSE is new?!)

I maintain to date I had no idea how much I was drinking. Aoirish, knowing my sensibilities would be diluted with the increasing alcohol intake, made sure my glass was never empty. It culminated in about 20 shots being sent over to our table. Aoirish swore to high heavens she had no idea where they came from, but there they were, and they had to be drunk. I also vaguely recall her saying, “Its only sugar, Vix, drink up!” Tequila shots, they weren’t, but until today, I have no idea what they were!

Later my more sober friend was to tell me not only did she see Aoirish go up to the bar, she also saw her SIGN FOR THE BILL. Bah! A leopard never changes its spots. A good lesson to remember. Especially a snake out of Ireland. It cannot be denied that she is fun, though. Dangerously so.

So, there I was, drunker than I had been in … well, since I was in Galway and stumbled into Connor’s eager arms, (lest we forget, which was also as a result of Aoirish refilling my glass at every opportunity) – when who did I stumble into this very night – but Driano.

You’ll recall me writing about him a long time back, when we found each other on Facebook. He’s based in the UK now, and was often in Holland. But we never did meet up, nor was I even all that bothered to … in the end. I was far more excited about my life in Holland than an unexpected blast from the past.

But now I had 9 months in Malaysia under my belt, and was no longer cheered by my amazing life. I was about to turn 29 (there, I said it!) in exactly a week, and was even MORE depressed by that thought. I hadn’t had a date in 9 months, and my vow of celibacy was going far too well. In fact … I hadn’t even kissed anyone in 9 months.

“Try on a daring mood when it comes to romance as the week gets going! Make the first move. Let a certain something out of the bag. Whether you're coupled up or single, the universe would love to see you acting bold now! Then, a conscious shift in your frame of mind is good for your heart around Thursday and Friday. “

Later I discovered that’s what my horoscope had said. Buoyed by Dutch courage, I was most certainly in a daring mood. Perhaps Driano was not as drunk as I was, but he was all over me too. When he held on to me (as I hung off him in that way drunken girls do), my mind raced over all the possibilities. Later, Aoirish told me, I was a woman on a mission. I had said to her, “I’m going to kiss him.”

…. And I did.

13 years later. What is it with my life? First revisiting my crush with Dr. Dish (someone DRIANO at introduced me to!), and now this. Driano, is the Defining Crush of my life. While Rex may have broken my heart, but Driano introduced me to Men. Is it just that there truly is no men left in KL for me, and I have to just go back to all the boys I’d already liked before?

“On the 9th and 10th, don't worry: there's a lot of romance in store for you. Don't be surprised if you find out the two of you have more in common than you thought -- including a huge crush on each other.”

Eerily, I’d been following my horoscope as it seems to be all about my life. This is something else I read on from that fateful encounter. And I can’t help but wonder … what if it is true? Driano could most certainly be the One. I’d been holding off getting excited because I didn’t hear from him, and he went back to the UK, and I thought that was that. Worse, he not only didn’t acknowledge what happened, he disappeared on me.

Then came my birthday, and he was one of the first few to send me a birthday message. An affectionate, familiar one. And in writing back, we have slowly started to communicate now. I don’t know the 30-year-old Driano. I don’t know what he’s done or who he’s become or how he’s grown up. So far, he seems to be a nicer, more eloquent, confident person than the insecure arrogant macho 16 year old I remembered (and was hopelessly obsessed about.) My feelings are for that 16 year old … but I can’t help but feel the butterflies once again.

It has been oh so long since I felt these butterflies.

He says he hopes to see me when he gets back at Christmas. I just have to wonder at the possibilities. … "Also, you have Jupiter in your true love sector, but Jupiter hasn't been working for you because it was in retrograde since early May. Now, on September 8, Jupiter will bolt forward, and you'll note a bewitching trend start up. For the first time in a long time, all conditions will be right to find true and lasting love. Trust that the universe has not forgotten you, dear Virgo. You are about to be the number one celestial favourite for finding and enjoying true love from now through December."